I am a reckoning.

" I tried to scream, but my head was underwater. They called me weak like I'm not just somebody's daughter. Could've been a nightmare...but I swear that they were right there..." -Billie Eilish, "everything i wanted"

Relaunching my life publicly feels weird. I had to come to the conclusion that hiding myself is not the answer to achieving my dreams. Some people can be stars from their room. I have to exist in the wind, wave at la playa. 

Relaunching my life publicly also means people who haven't seen me in years can pretend to be linked to me publicly. That's what annoys me above all: people that know for a fact they don't care about me still want to benefit off of my warmth or visibility but will never offer anything in return. I'm glad that I was mentally prepared for that because the block game has increased greatly. 

No one gets multiple chances anymore to prove they are not going to show up for me in the ways that I need. I'm not 20 anymore, let alone 17. Earn your spot or get the fuck on. It's simple. 

Besides, if you didn't like me when I was literally in your face every day, why would you believe that I think you have the best intentions for me after years of no contact? Bitches (male and female alike) are weird, and they greatly underestimate my ability to see through them. Even when I'm uncertain of the plot, I know one exists intuitively. My boyfriend would call it "Cancering" if I were a Cancer, but I'm something much more formidable....a Virgo with a goddamn Black Moon Lilith in Libra....

I am extremely organized and militant...living to seek justice for both myself and others. I'm a put-together individual who is figuratively (and literally due to a weak stomach) with the shits. This is not a safe place to play. I was never weak. I expected people that said they loved me to mean it. I was never stupid...I was being manipulated. The people that have done notable harm to my self-image have my ass to kiss now. Distance is better than revenge because at least in distance I thrive and focus on myself. 

Hating bitches should focus on the kids they have to raise...the relationships they have to pretend work...or the substance abuse issues wrecking their private lives.

Andrea's going to do what Andrea's always done...dominate herself until....you know....

Buy Me Flowers...and a La Quinta Inn Please!!!!

    I just want to be rich and travel. I don't think that's a lot to ask. A La Quinta Inn is an extremely reasonable investment. I have $20....what we doing? 

    In the meantime, here are some memories from my trip to Dallas for J. Cole's concert :). I drove 7 hrs and 40 min to go see him. During that time I bought expensive QuikTrip tampons, bawled my eyes out at the Confessions of a Video Vixen audiobook, and listened to lectures on the phospholipid bilayer...almost got flattened by an 18-wheeler and missed like two exits. (Freeway? Don't know her.)

 This was my first concert, so I'm happy I got to experience one of my favorite artists. He literally opened with like the best song on The Fall Off album. 

    The concert was fun, but I needed a nightcap (I don't actually know what a nightcap is, but I'm using context clues.)

"Wanna take a ratchet club pic?" "What's a ratchet club pic?" 😂 Apparently: 

Photo print from after the concert.
Kept looking at it on the drive back.

Walked as far as we could from AAC in hopes
of finding a "cheap" Lyft...but this background
was cuuuute.

    That being said, we walked around Deep Ellum (a couple blocks of clubs, bars, and eateries) in search of food and drinks. LOTS of ass cheeks out by the way....like bare ass cheeks. 🥺 I wish the girls would explore a new trend honestly. 

    Afterwards, me and my homegirl/date went to Chicken and Rice? (It was genuinely called that, I'm certain) where we spilled some tea and listened to some very ratchet young people yell over our glass bottle sodas. 

NYC Chicken W/O Lettuce. 10/10!!

"No, I was gonna say how are you drawing my attention with no pencil?" -Funny Ass Dude in Vidorra 🤣

Bathroom Selfie in Vidorra 2026 (Dallas, TX)

    Then stopped at Vidorra because 2 AM was fast approaching, and I wanted some whiskey. They only had unflavored Jameson, so I obviously followed homegirl's lead and got a Tequila with pineapple juice. Very watery. Some broads broke glass and were about to fight, but that got broken up rather quickly. 

    Anyway, this is all I really have time to write for now, but there's videos and stuff I want to edit and post here later. I think this was a fantastic way to end the summer. 💗

   

Where Do I Start?

I have nothing to say. Nothing to write.