Accolades

"But I don't wanna give up. Baby, I just want you to get up..." -H.E.R., Focus

Things I Used to Want Trophies For:

-Being "rebellious"
-Having hair that grows quickly
-Being a writer whether I was actually good or not
-Never covering up
-Being broke/humble...real humble

My first post of 2018 was supposed to be about toxic Black social norms, and believe me it's coming. At this very moment, though, there are more personal things on my spirit. Your girl has been...confused. Now I know what you're thinking. "Bitch, you always got some shit going." In all honesty, you're not wrong. This, however, is positive shit. I'm moving in a different direction. I'm so serious about this that I literally have been refraining from the use of social media (other than occasionally looking on Twitter to see what's going on in the world of hoodrat), I've been drinking more water, minimizing my intake of sugar, submitting my writing practically every other day, dancing with no draws on (Okay I've been doing that, but still.), and no one can reach me after 9:00 P.M. because your girl is tired of being a vampire.

My confusion has been more or less about what I really want from life. A secure income? Sure. A fruitful writing career? Most def! A college education? Sounds good; I'm pursuing one, but I do understand it's not the end of the world if I don't obtain it. I guess you can say I'm stuck between "Let's buckle down and get serious about every little thing. Time you're wasting is your own" and "YOLO." Somehow in the midst of my pre-midlife crisis, I've been happy as fuck. Been pinpointing all the ways I'm toxic to those that I love the most and have actually removed myself from them. Remove is harsh and really permanent sounding. I'll say I've distanced myself until I do a liiiiiittle more soul-searching.

More than anything, I want to say thanks to you! Whether you're new here or an old follower that's been wondering why the hell I've been so absent after months of consistency, whether you're a hater hoping I've been in jail again, or whether you're a friend just wondering if I'm straight, THANK YOU! Not a lot of people know what they mean to others, and I honestly don't think I want to know, but I will say it warms me to have consistent readers and supporters. That being said, what are some things you'd really like to see me explore on here? I'm trying to expand, y'all. Since I'm no longer as accessible on social media, feel free to send me an email.

yesitsdrea@gmail.com